ALIVE

22208_10204107381031093_6401651758408586513_nSemper Ad Meliora

She wanted to live life liberate but was tied down by responsibilities.

She wanted to soar freely, but society encaged her.

She didn’t believe in priorities but rather she dealt with what’s in front of her.

All she wanted was to explore, but she was limited in resources, time, knowledge.

She was told to wait until she has bloomed, but she was scared because she could hear the clock ticking, any second could be her last. But the universe assured her she got all the time in the world. As for now, she have to be equipped.

But she knew better. Compelled by aversion, she was led to rebellion.

And despite the warnings she wandered in the absence of authority. And in her wandering, she lost her self. She tried not to care but did anyway.

Now, she’s still lost in the labyrinth of life but she couldn’t be any happier.

To my future Love

To my future Love,

You are God’s promise to me.

First & foremost, I want to apologize for being impatient. For getting into short-term relationships, for investing my time & money, for giving a part of me to the wrong ones, for treating love like it’s a game & for being selfish. But from this day onwards, I will remain faithful to you. Fully surrendering to God our fate. I can’t think of a better author to orchestrate this love story, other than Love Himself.

I am gradually learning what patience is, realizing you are worth the wait. I am learning to embrace this season, enjoying & fully living every second of it. Thank you for giving me this time to be on my own; to learn to love myself deeply & completely, to focus on myself more than ever, to grow in faith & virtue, to gain the knowledge & experience I need, to finish my degree, to build a foundation for my career, to travel & meet people, to build friendships, to understand life, to make memories & BE THE VERY BEST OF ME.

I cannot wait for this love to be ignited. And I want you to know that if you meet me you would see that I am complete without you but with you, I can be so much better. I want us to grow together & support each other grow individually. I want us to be partners, to help each other every time. I want you to be my #1 fan & my biggest critic, be honest with me, always. Don’t sugar coat things, tell me how it really is & put me in my place. I want you to be my prayer partner, my church buddy, my accountability. Let us put God at the center & core of this relationship that He may be glorified. I also want to see the world with you, to explore the nature’s beauty & be in awe at the same time. Oh, I love to eat I expect you to be the same but we will also hit the gym often & honor God with our body. And lastly, more than lovers, we will be best friends, I want to be your greatest confidante. I want us to be able to share everything, our secrets, our families, our friends, our resources, our problems. I want us to build a life TOGETHER, no inhibitions.

Our romance will defy the world’s view of love. We will prove them wrong. Love can be infinite, monogamous, & blissful. We will be the epitome of unconditional love, we will love one another as our Heavenly Father love us. As I am preparing myself for you, I know you are doing the same. I can’t wait to fall deeply madly in love with you.

With love & sincerity,

Your future Sweetheart.

P. S. : I am praying for you.

AJA

A friend of mine has a blog wherein she writes about the important people in her life. I love how she is so good with words, and the way she writes is just amazing, so raw yet so beautiful.

Here is something she has to say about me. This was really flattering.

Aja.

If she is not around, you’d notice. Her absence speaks as much as she talks. Indeed, she’s a chatterbox… She never, never, runs out of things to say. You may be put off at how talkative she is initially, but this is the very thing you’d long for once she’s not in close proximity.

Her presence is life itself… I’ve never met someone so animated, with such a unique perspective of things. She can give her two cents at something and it would leave me questioning my own opinion. She engages you in lively banter because she is infinitely intriguing, and there is so much in her to share.

She came from a family whose members are a lot similar to how she is. They actually remind me of a top-rated sitcom; apart from the amusing entertainment, they’ve victoriously conquered conflicts that birthed a lifetime of lessons. It’s no mystery she turned out to be the dynamic girl that she is. There isn’t a dull moment when she’s there.

She is cunning, but clever. Cunning would sound demeaning to some but that is not the case when coupled with being clever. She puts her intuitive knowledge of how things work completely to her advantage. A survivor, this one. You can’t predict what she thinks, and if you think you can see through her, you’d be mistaken. Maybe in that moment you can figure her out, but not long after that, she already changed her mind.

I can’t say she’s indecisive… She’s not, because she knows what she wants. She could just be overwhelmed with her options. She may long for security at this point in her life but I admire the way she can cruise through it without necessarily feeling the need to look back all the time… She lives for the thrill of the moment, and the rush of life with no pause, and no break. Bliss is her friend, but it isn’t through ignorance that they’re acquainted. She takes life lightly, as we should all try… It makes the ride more fun. As they say, since you’re already in the party, you might as well dance.

In such a short amount of time that I know her, I am sure I’d like to keep her here as much as I can… For even if she can be extremely unpredictable, I know deep within that there’s something in her we can be sure of; she has a genuine heart, and it’s a firm source of love

Follow her blog : https://www.tumblr.com/register/follow/proseandperspective

The One That Got Away

I miss you.

You & Me, one day & till that day comes I will patiently be waiting. The chemistry is undeniable, the spark is electrifying. I would trade any day for a time spent with you. I just miss you so much that it breaks me.

Would I rather have not met you? Yes? No? Maybe? I’m not really sure. But if I were to be honest, there are days I wished I didn’t know you. I’m pretty sure I’ll never meet anyone as awesome as you are, as smart ass as you are (I meant this as a compliment), as great as you are, as intellectual, as fetching… the list goes on. You’ve set the bar pretty high. I feel bad for those to follow, not that I hope of it ‘cuz one thing is for certain I want you, only you.

I pray that one day our paths will once again cross. I’ll see it as fate working its magic. It’ll be the day we’ll fall in love, hopefully.

Your eyes captivates me, there is nothing I wish than to be lost in your emerald eyes. Your lips so soft and coy, I could just kiss them all day. And the way you hold me in your arms, I don’t want you to let go. I never felt more secured. The way your body responds to mine, how we tend to move in rhythm. I can just feel the connection.

Every words you spoke it hit a nerve in me. It wasn’t all sweet talks but even your intellectual remarks brought me in awe. At a young age how can you know so much? I love how you got all your shits figured out. I’ve never met someone who is as passionate as you are in what they’re doing. And thinking you’re just 19, I was picturing a fickle minded bloke but not you. You’re certain of what you want to do and you’re doing it. You didn’t cave in in what the society dictates you to be. But rather you knew what you want and you went for it. I’ll never get tired hearing stories of what you do and I bet you’ll never get tired telling them. But then there are times I wished for you to shut-up and divert your emphasis at me. As I am in the process of knowing you I hope the same for you too. Because more than skin deep are thousand things to love about me.

BABE

Remember our first meeting? How I caught you staring at me, but despite that you didn’t look away and I found myself staring right back at you. There’s something about the way you looked at me and that smile that lit in your face. It was so innocent, I fell for it. I just have to know you. Luckily, you asked for my name and damn! I didn’t hesitate. You were the first guy I actually dated, most guys they fall in the category of “guys I just went out with.”

I remember our first date. T’was also the day we first met. I actually thought you’d reach me the next day or maybe you’re the “3 days” kinda guy but I guess you weren’t. You texted me 2 hours after we parted, you asked if I wanted to grab dinner. The way you asked me out, cliche! But I love how casual it sounded but straight forward, you didn’t have to do the “hi hello are you single? What’s your like, dislike?” I mean we could have just texted all night but you rather know me in person, And it’s very unlikely for a guy to want to see a girl twice in one day.

I remember seeing you waiting behind the cars, you were unsure if I was going to show-up, I did the classic girl move where I’ll let you wait for 5-8 minutes. I remember how we strolled along the road with no definite plans, we just kept on walking and walking looking for a kebab restaurant but unfortunately didn’t find any. I apologized for being so picky but then you said “atleast I get to spend more time with you.”

It wasn’t the best first date, not mention how many times I compared you to my ex. And when you dropped me off, you were interrogated by my bestfriend. The night couldn’t have been more terrorizing. But it did. I coerced you to sing for me, infront of my bestfriend, knowing you’re an introvert it meant a lot to me. I honestly didn’t expect for a second date but then I received a text from you at a very ungodly hour, telling me how much you enjoyed the night and how you want to know me more. I wasn’t able to sleep that night. I just can’t wait for our second date.

I’m too young too conclude, but as far as watching & reading documentaries of successful people is concern. I think it’s safe to say that our world is stacked with dogmatic specialist but its the generalist that outdo life.

Is Being A Feminist A Bad Thing?

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Is being a feminist a bad thing?

It depends on how you define feminism. Our society today has different views about modern feminism. And unfortunately, for most they see feminism as a negative trait. But how can I blame them? With all those crazy BS feminist invading the streets, bars, schools, media, etc. Don’t get me wrong. There is nothing wrong with being a feminist. Infact, I myself consider myself a feminist. Feminism was form for the greater good. It exemplifies equality & equity. It’s about men & women having equal rights in political, social, and economic aspect. But over the years, feminism worsen thus the birth of “BS FEMINISM.”

BS feminist –a.k.a. the extremist– is the faction of women who thinks that they are vastly superior than men, they revolve around the inadequacy of men to prove their point that “women are better than men.” They are the most unreasonable, most irrational, most absurd being. Calling them a woman would be asinine, because a woman is an epitome of someone beautiful, smart, elegant, and assertive but yet sensitive individual. And a BS feminist is nothing like that, BS feminist are a joke.

Here are some but few of the reasons why BS FEMINISM is preposterous:

1. You want equality but once he stop opening doors for you and starts making you watch those sports you’re not interested in, or taking you out in local pub instead of a nice dinner in your favorite Italian restaurant. You start nagging, telling your girlfriends “Why is he treating me like one of the guys?

2. No matter how many times you say that you are as strong as men, you need an escort walking down a dark alley.

3. You protest about men perpetually objectifying and dehumanizing you. Well, try putting some decent clothes on instead of those low-cut top & red stilettos. Sometimes men are just men, they can’t help ogle at your flaunted breast or gaze at your behind, those skin tight jeans aren’t helping. And here’s another story, You nag to your bff about how Mr. Cutie over there doesn’t seem to notice how hot you look tonight. (You are ridiculously paradoxical.)

4.You tell jokes about sex, tease him even by touching him, and then cry harassment when a man does the same. (WOW!)

5. Let’s talk about marriage; I’m thinking it’s just fair for BS feminist to pay their fair share of expenses. After all you’re way superior than man. And you might aswell be the one popping the question.

6. You condemn sexism, but you consider all men as filthy rapist to be eschew. (Talk about HYPOCRITE!!)

7. And sex, you claim all men are filthy rapist who’ll infect you and turn you into fiend. But in the privacy of your bedroom you go screaming “ALLLEEEJJJAAANNNDDROOO,” or for those radical bs feminist “GO FVCK YOURSELF”

This list could go on but I think you get the picture.

You see feminism never aimed to dominate men. It was never its intention.

I real feminist- beautiful, smart & independent- is aware that man & woman are 2 different individuals, with different genetic make-up.

We each have our own area of expertise, men are better in many things than women, same goes to women being better in many things than men. That’s why God created both man & woman, to fill the gap that the other is lacking. There is no superiority in equality. In conclusion,

I think BS feminism is merely a disguised MISANDRY, and is nothing related to feminism at all. Feminism is the radical belief that women are people and should be given the same right, same opportunity, same respect like the rest. But for some reason men & women in general have this bad connotation of feminism. So instead of proclaiming feminism to men, preach CHIVALRY!

Top 3 Lies About Being Practical & Setting Passion Aside

http://www.upworthy.com/it-only-takes-one-single-minute-for-this-zany-comedian-to-change-how-you-think-about-your-life?g=2

The link above made me think twice about what I’m doing with my life. Maybe if I was able to watch this before I entered college I might have chosen a different path.


 

We are so anxious about the future that we make secured choices rather than take chances. I know a lot of people who gave up on their dreams and took the conventional road, the safe way. But sometimes being practical is completely impractical.

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Sad to say, but our society is not passion oriented either. We are often discouraged and constantly being lied to with regard to pursuing our passion. And here are the top 3 lies that have bombarded us for centuries:

1. It’s all about making a good living and passion never earned a paycheck

Every time we talk about career paths, money has always been a factor. And there’s nothing wrong with that but making it as your primary goal that’s another thing. Can’t we be able to earn a decent amount of money at the same time enjoy what we’re doing? In fact, according to studies it shows that you will be far happier, far more successful and make far more money if you are passionate with what you’re doing. Truth is, if you are passionate about something chances are you’ll excel at that field, if you hate doing something you’ll probably never be good at it. And doubtless, if you’re brilliant at what you’re doing you’ll certainly earn the respect and the check you deserve. Because no matter how vindictive this world may seem, they definitely recognize an astute mind.

2. Secure a job, earn a decent amount of money and then you could pursue your passion

This is usually what our parents tell us, and indeed it’s pretty manipulating. It even sounds like a logical approach. However, in reality this hardly ever happen because rationally speaking it’s not that easy to extract yourself from a stable “practical” job. Once you’re up there, the next thing you know you’re already locked tight by the golden handcuffs. So usually the scenario goes “we become acquainted with our established career that we set aside our passion. Then one day, wake up just to realize it’s too late.”

3. Lastly, Practicality is the way to go; pursuit for passion comes with a risk.

But even crossing the road comes with a risk. And yet people still do it. What practicality offers is false security. Practical is not synonymous to success. Life seldom tells us is that there is a fair shot in everything. Even the most practical thing to do can lead to failure. So you might as well fail doing something you love.

 

What people missed out is that by pursuing your passion, you are LIVING YOUR PURPOSE. Like what Gandalf (Lord of the Rings) once said, and I quote;

 

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“All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.”

Life is too short to settle for less than passionate. 

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A text to a fickle minded lass

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We dated, we had a great time.

No wait, a great time does not even begin to describe that night. It was the best date I had in a long time. I don’t believe in love-at-first-sight but meeting you made me think otherwise. Before you, I never thought you could really have that instant connection with someone. It only took us 6 hours of togetherness to realize we click, you & me.

Before we parted, you asked for my phone number and I didn’t hesitate. And I suppose you’re not a fan of the 3 days rule because here I am reading your text:

“I really had a great time. Dinner @ 7?”

I wasn’t sure to reply. I know it sounds paradoxical, if I had the time of my life last night why would I be having second thoughts. But you have to understand where I’m coming from –the hopeless romantic in me– This world we live in is full of crap, a lot of things go wrong in life. But last night, last night was perfect. It was the one thing that will never go off beam. And I’m anxious that I’m denying both of us that moment if I agreed meeting you once more. What if it didn’t go well the second time around? I don’t want to stain your memory of me that night.

“Beep” another text message.

🙂

It’s silly because nothing annoys me more than someone not responding to my text. It’s slothful, it’s egocentric, it’s rude; And here I am- hypocrite.

But maybe it’s a way of protecting myself, after experiencing tons of broken promises, hurts & disappointments. Maybe it’s a distorted defense mechanism of mine. Having the say, gaining the level of control -is not something I often had the power to when it comes to dating. Feeling “beyond your reach” is an ego boost for my bruised self-esteem.

You have to understand it’s not you- you’d probably think this is one of those cliché lines. But in all honesty, it’s not you it’s me. I want you to know you are physically attractive- that abs, your perfectly white teeth, those tantalizing eyes that I secretly wished I had, and how your brown hair is all styled up didn’t go unnoticed. You are gorgeous. You’re smart, ambitious, sensible with a great amount of sense of humor, and your youthfulness is contagious.

In fact now that I think more about you, I guess we’ll probably get along really well, you & I.

“Ok, as long as I get to choose what to eat.” *clicked send.